So I'm over you. Well at least I think I am. I miss your touch, your kiss, god I loved to kiss you. I miss being held, I don't know if I miss being held by you necessarily or if I just miss being held in general. I feel like you took everything I had, I feel as though I have nothing left. They say home is where the heart is, well my heart belong to you and you were my home. Now I am just another homeless vagabond. I just don't even know what to do anymore. I hate who you have become, you used to not be like this. I almost cried tonight. I remembered a night we had together, it was so wonderful. It was the one and only time I've ever seen a shooting star. Do you remember? We went on a picnic one night out in a field that was beautiful. The sky was crystal clear and it seemed as though you could see every single one of the billions and billions of stars in the sky. And you told me that you had brought me here so that I could see a shooting star because I so desperately wanted to. Well I finally did, and it was beautiful and it was a beautiful night. We had eaten out under the stars, even though our meal consisted of take out from Old Venice, it was perfect. We finally had to leave because I was about to freeze to death, but I still remember it like it was yesterday, and I wish that it had been yesterday. You are my shooting star. There has been only one in my life and it's beauty came and went much to fast. If I had blinked I would have missed it. At least you used to be my shooting star. The old you was everything to me, this new you I despise. I don't understand how a person can change so much so quickly, so I put it down to the fact that I never really knew you. I guess I never really did, or maybe I did and I just never wanted to admit what you truly were. But I didn't cry. You can't make me cry anymore. God I haven't cried in forever, but the last time I did, I knew I was over you. I told myself that when I could cry and it had nothing to do with you then that's when I would truly be over you. Then finally one day I cried, I didn't even cry the last time you broke up with me, but I cried on this glorious day. It didn't happen all of a sudden but that's when it struck me that you were no longer everything to me, and then a wonderful thing happened, I just stopped caring about you. I still care about who you used to be and a part of me will always love him, but I don't care for who you are now and I hope one day you grow up. I fell in love with a person who made me happy no matter what and then he died and his evil twin has now taken his place. So I will mourn the death of the boy I loved but maybe one day he will be back again and learn to love someone. He will learn to love someone with all of his heart instead of only part of it. I loved him with all of mine and my love for you was always enough for me, that's all I needed. But your love for me wasn't enough for you, I wasn't enough for you. You were greedy and you always wanted more, and I could never give you everything. So I gave you all of me and when you grew tired of that you threw me away. I finally started to rebuild myself but I miss how much I smiled when I was in a relationship. I've started to think now maybe it wasn't you that made me a better person, maybe it was just the fact that I had someone to love and that's all I truly needed. Whatever it was I always felt like I was a better person when I was with you but I've come to learn that I wasn't. I abandoned all of my friends and granted that some of them were not the greatest of friends, I still gave them up because I thought all I need was you. Well I learned that I was wrong, I don't need you, my friends are all I need. I honestly thought I would marry you. We planned our dream home and we even talked about the names of our children. I had always thought love in high school was ridiculous and impossible. Well I found out that it's not impossible but it is ridiculous. If I had to do it all over again I would have never dated you, I would have only been friends with you. Then maybe now we would still be talking and I wouldn't hate who you are now quite so much.